Controlling Emotions

I really think this photo kind of puts today in perspective, minus my eating habits. Which, is actually pretty impressive. I felt like I was riding a roller coaster today from an emotional point of view. The day started off fine (minus having to wake up early after a long weekend) and at some point during the day, I just got frustrated and aggravated with life. This somewhat worked to my benefit when I was working out this evening. I was focused and felt fantastic after I left the gym. A lot of times I just feel defeated when I know I should do three more reps of any lift - leg, arm, you name it and my body just physically can't do it. Tonight I was working on my legs and I loved walking around the gym with my jelloid legs. It feels funny, but I also know it is a good feeling because I gave my legs a fantastic workout.

The eating did not go so hot today. I didn't eat a thing until lunch and at that point I was absolutely starving. I NEED to start eating breakfast or this is all going to explode quickly right in front of me.

I am hoping for a better day tomorrow. This was just a very bad day emotionally and yikes - let's not do that again.

Only the Beginning

I've been staring at the cursor on this page for over thirty minutes now. It's kind of daunting to write the first post and have it be something that will bring readers back. I guess in theory, I don't REALLY care if someone reads this or not because it is for me more than anything. But, on the other hand, I am human and could only hope that this will reach someone further than myself.

I am preparing myself for a bright 2010. 2010 is going to be the year in which I take control over my lifestyle and begin my journey to make my heart healthy and happy. Over the last two years, I have taken part in the American Heart Association's Heart Walk. Every year when I raise money, I think to myself that I need to get in gear because cardiovascular disease is a serious issue that claims the life of over 800,000 people each year. That being said, my plan is to not only to get in shape and learn to live a healthier life for myself, but also my heart. I want to live for a long time and I know there is something to be said ( a lot, in fact) for starting now.

What is unfortunate for me is that I love sugar. I don't think it is sugar as much as I love candy, cookies, ice cream, etc. I know I am not alone on this. I went through my house this morning throwing out each and every piece of candy and other food that would fall into the same category. It felt good throwing it out and I know this is going to be a huge step for me.

I am definitely read for my new outlook and my new healthy life that is ahead of me.

Come on, 2010.